MY FIRST "fear" quarter. 2 Giugno 2010. Festa della Repubblica?! Non soltanto!! Per me è stato soprattutto il giorno del mio
TEST DI GRAVIDANZA ! Yes, after 11 days of endless waiting by the installation of my 2 embrioncini, this was the day of truth.
In fact, I felt a bit "pregnant" (mainly dizziness), but I thought it might be just my suggestion. I perfectly remember the phone call to Kim, the nurse at the clinic. When the phone rang I was looking for parking close to the work of Scott ... we decided to have lunch waiting for the result. "Hi Kim
" I said, putting on the second row and not caring about the traffic. My heart was in 3000 and the only thing I added was a long time:
"Soooo ???". And she said one word:
CONGRATULATIONS! I can not explain the emotion of that moment, I just know that I was holding the phone and my hands were shaking so I could not even call Scott!
After the test on June 2 I had to do another two days after confirming the pregnancy (because you take hormones during the IVF cycle can "distort" the result) and then started the ultrasound to check the settinamali development of the fetus until the eighth week.
The first question was:
"They attacked both the embryos? I have a twin? ". But you have to wait until the first ultrasound, after about ten days of testing. What stress! What I would have preferred? I can not say. What is certain is that after all I've done, they went very well 2, so I thought I removed all at once. But the first inspection only one bullet was throbbing, one little heart. Relieved? Disappointed? I do not know. The only real thought was: "There is a
cuoricinoooo ... I AM PREGNANT! . When they made me feel the beat, the next week, was an incredible emotion .. that
"tu-tum, tu-tum" enters your ears and heart and do not go away!
In the two months that followed I had one great moment of terror when I've had some losses. I spent an afternoon in a desperate and sleepless nights, but the next morning to he still had control, the red dot pulsing strong in my belly! In mid-July
Dr Greenseid said: "
our work is about to end, gradually diminish the dose of hormone injections and hopefully you can go to a gynecologist normal." Eh, 2 months of daily injections of progesterone were not then the pleasure! Scott has become a model to infer what is not e. .. you would in certain situations: Scott delayed one day and the bite are made by me alone! But it was worth it :-)
all'IRMS last inspection the day I brought chocolates for everyone: nurses, sonographers, medical receptionist ... I can not never thank them enough!
But
FIRST QUARTER of pregnancy was not so fabulous. One says:
"Ok, you made all this difficult path, but now you're pregnant, relaxed." Well, not so easy!. The word FEAR
best describes this period. During the first week I lived in terror of being able to have an abortion, since the risk is high, both for the fact that the age of insemination. I waited for those weekly visits to the clinic as the manna, worried that something might not go, do not be normal. And every time I went out with an ultrasound of my baby in my hand ... at the beginning it was just a circle, ma ogni settimana si avvicinava sempre più all'immagine di un bambino!
Ho vissuto 2 mesi e mezzo terrorizzata che qualsiasi cosa che facessi potesse farmi abortire. Praticamente ho messo in “stand by” il mio corpo, la mia vita. Niente più scuola, niente più ballo, niente più uscite di nessun tipo...L'unica cosa che mi sono concessa sono state brevi passeggiate. E giuro che per un tipo “non casalingo” come me è stato pesante!
Ho letto molto sull'argomento “gravidanza”, cercando però di non abituarmi troppo all'idea.
Anche la ricerca di un ginecologo e la scelta dell'ospedale dove partorire non sono state facili, vista la mia inesperienza locale. Il primo ginecologo che ho visto mi ha voluto fare un pap test e mi ha fatto sanguinare così tanto che sono finita all'ospedale disperata!!! Quindi ho subito cambiato e il nuovo, un filippino di nome Ernani, me lo sono fatta andar bene. Dopo un po' si comincia ad essere stanche.
Poi c'è stato il
GRANDE PASSO : il superamento della 10° settimana. Da questo momento le possibilità di aborto spontaneo diminuiscono drasticamente e mi sarei dovuta sentire sollevata.
Ma il timore dell'aborto è stato rimpiazzato dalla nuova paura:
SARA' SANO? Con l'età aumenta il rischio di avere un bambino con Sindrome di Down o altre malattie cromosomiche e io mi sono fissata su questa cosa. Durante le ultime settimane the first quarter you can make a series of tests that give you a percentage of risk that your child has problems. I refused to do it. What I care to know that there are 1 in 20 chance, or 1 in 40 or 100 ... Only amniocentesis can give you a certain result and I will do that. So needless anxiety to undergo further exams by the first.
So
LOOKS . I look amniocentesis August 26 and then the result will wait two weeks.
Mmmm ... Perhaps that is why we say:
"I'm waiting" when you are pregnant ...
WHY 'IS ALWAYS WAITING FOR THE RESULT OF SOME CONSIDERATION!